can i don't update on Genting Trip? i'll probably post some pics soon la. but i'm too lazy to do that now =p

i just heard of something recently.. bout him knowing.. you know, i'm often in a state of dilemma. at times, i feel that i'm ready to announce to the whole world bout it.. but when i start hearing things and stuff.. i really don't feel like it anymore.. let's just say i'm trying to use this to cover up my mistakes i guess? somehow, it'll help to lessen my guilt towards him.. *shrugs* i think i feel the strongest sense of guilt towards him cos.. of the time he wasted.. the efforts down the drain.. actually it's the TIME. to me, time is everything. the right timing and all. it was important to me, it is now and it will always be. maybe it's also because, the rest of them have/had found their other halves.. and i feel that everything's no longer in my hands.. and that there's no need to feel responsible towards them anymore.. but not for him.. a good guy like him shouldn't have wasted time on me..

so right now when i'm feeling guilty towards you, i'm starting to feel guilty towards him as well.

..and so i'll continue to indulge in the past..